Believers Never Die.

neither will i.

it's not fair.

not to any of you.
i love each of you individually.
but i resent everyone.
for not being able to show me love.
im always told everything.
but never shown.
i can't feel words.
it's my downfall.
"your my bestfriend"
is meaningless.
"i hate you"
is meaningless
"i love you"
meaningless.

i'm so apathetic in my resent though.
i'll never truely care - my downfall.

i came close to death.
i realized.
i need to list reasons why.

i cant act any longer...
so i'm stuck with words.
which seem to be all i got
it sucks so much to be stuck,
Meaningless.

but this is bestfriendforever love.

i sacrifice.
myself.
way to much.
why?
i don't want anything in return
i suffer.
to help others.
i need.
to stop.
i can't.
nobody.
truely.
understands.
i just wish.
i never became attached.
to anything.
so i wouldnt.
have to be in pain...
you might think..
i could stop.
and walk away now.
from anyone.
i can't...
:'(

I Just Got Back.

from emilys.
i got to spend 40 minutes with her.
outside in the cold.
wishing her a happy birthday.
the moment i saw her...

heart pounds,
head spining,
happiness gained.

the playful conversations.
the hugs.
the laughter.
everything.
and
everything.


so much for falling out of love.

I Hate.

when teachers point out the fact that im intelligent.
yet the only reason im failing is because i don't do work at home.
it annoys me.
because they tell my mother.
and then i have to deal with like 50 different types of guilt.
that i convert into self loathing.
and i still do not change on the subject.
i just don't do work.
if i fail, then i accept that.
it's my own damn problem.
that i understand.
stop trying to manipulate me into being someone im not.

Never.

Never have i (ever) been so scared of
moving on.

and if anyone.
tells me.
they are proud of me because of it.
i'll hate you

water.

i'm chained.
restrained
it's a feeling i hate.
needing others for myself to grow.
normally i'd say it isn't bad.
but as alone as i get.
i begin to fade away.

i'm locked in a cycle that i can't yet break through.
but soon i'll fade away so much the chains won't fit anymore



i've been broken constantly throughout life.
it's what happens
yet i'll move on.
i'm changing again.
i can feel it deep inside of me.
inside,
my soul it's
spiralling, spinning, whirling out of control.
and i'm not one to stop it.

Never Will I Stop Change.

I'M MOVING TO THE COUNTRY AND EAT ALOT OF PEACHES!!!!!!!

i love this song now.
where have random 90s bands been all my life?

anyway.
life is weird.
i accept it.
and hate it.
but mostly i love it.

I'm So Bitter I Can Taste IT!

do you know what i realized.

i play the part of the guy/friend who will never leave and will always be there for them.

in basically all of my friendships.

but do you know what i realized?

that i'm gonna do just that.
not leave.

but then they won't stick around.

Great.
Life Sucks Then I Die.

I Hate Myself And Want To Die.

everyday is wasted.
i sleep over 12 hours each day.
i can't help it.

school is the only period of time i'm actually awake.
so sorry if it seems like im ignoring you.
im just sleeping.
for no reason at all.
i apologize.

To Many Things No One Would Understand.

i like.
electricity.
why?
because it's chaos.
i love the feel of it crawling through my skin.
when it glances my finger tips through my body and down to the ground.
plus.
it's soothing to stare at.
even if it's restrained at the time.
and how so much i want to let it free...

i wish i wasn't in a life like this.
one that seems to be like an alternative reality game.
i wish it was more like a rpg.
i hope my consciousness breaks the mold.
i hope to end up in a different type of reality once i die.

i don't need to "wake up"
i just need to be dreaming a different dream.

i like that.
alot.

i find the darkness appealing.
i find light boring.
i wish i could live at night only.
and sleep during the day.
the night offers comfort.
but the day offers people.
the night offers excitment.
while the day offers routine.
it bothers me so much.
i like to hide.
it's who i am.
yet im forced to reveal myself in the light.
ihateitihateitihateit.

no one else can relate.
i hate it when that happens.
i wish people could understand what i meant.
when i said i felt what i heard.
i can't describe it...

and i don't understand your need to explain everything.
i play yugioh because its there.
and the fact that im a teen has nothing to do with anything about it.
why do you have to analyze everything to the point where theres no room for any freeway.
you'll just end up struggling even more because of it.
things are meant to be free and unrestricted.
stop shoving them into a box.
your pissing me off.

silence.
is more appreciated then ever.
lately.
i've been enjoying the silence whenever i can.
i only listen to music to drown out noise.
but when theres no noise.
i turn off my ipod,
my music,
and i listen to nothing.

lastly.
im worried.
i can't explain why.
or what.
but im worried about you.
be careful.
<3.

p.s.
i found a song.
and i love it.
its weird.
because.
i feel.
as though.
i can.
relate to the guitar.
and how it is.
idk.
i love it.

M4 Part 2 (Faunts) - Jack Wall and Sam Hulick
it's the credits theme to Mass Effect...

Remembering Sunday

"And even though she doesn't believe in love
He's determined to call her bluff"
:'( <3.

Christmas Might Be Decent This Year.

People are sad.
Everyone is fucked.
No one has any idea on what to do with there lives.
and all i have to say.
is

Let's Count Our Wins, Not Our Misses.
we shouldn't have to count everytime we've fucked up.
because in the end.
we are what we want to be.

i'm scared of betrayal.

it effects everything i do.
yet it's something that can't be seen.
im afraid to bring it up to my friends.
because no one will understand.
and those few who can.
won't talk about it.
or if they do.
its almost meaningless.
the boundrys of my life were forced upon me.
and its almost sad to know that i accept my place.
that i've swallowed all pride i ever had.
and accepted the fact that there is nothing i can do to break free.

lastly.

i had a huge slip up today.
i think im fine now.
or im just passing off as nothing.
but my mind just took hold of my heart and started racing.
without giving my heart time to feel.

Blood is seeping from my WOUNDS, Edging closer to my DOOM

and i just made a screamo rap from that.
i made my life.
anywho.

i love how this feels.
like i hate how i forgotten this.
the numbness.
and then the sharp feeling.
fading back to numbness
then lingering feeling.
its comfortinggg:)
mwar and it looks like kickass body art.
and im totally making it seem like its not a big deal
cause it ain't one.

umm
!
i feel guilty for not talking to you.
cause in reality your prolly as messed up as me.
and idk i feel like i should be nicer to you.
and attempt to talk to you instead of just reacting.
but idk.
i am a coward.
in the end i'll just run away.

last but not least.
like 8 people at my school think im gonna commit suicide at my school
and they're really nice to me.
and it makes me uncomfortable.
cause i dont know if they like me.
or if they just dont want me to die.
idk.
it's weird.
and i all has to do with the hair.
but whatev.
i accept it:)

I Am Cut

i feel so distant

yet so close.
to everyone.
like theres a thin wire connecting all of us.
but it was cut

ENCE ENCE! ENCE ENCE! ENCE ENCE!

180BPM
is where it's at.
little known.
is that techno (what people call techno cause theres like 2380284 subgenres technos just one of them.) is my favorite genre of music.
yet it's the one i listen to the least?
idk i just find it the purest form of music and creativity
just short of hitting random shit and calling it music.
which is music.
but ya.
but idk techno just makes me happy.
and it makes me move.
and it's perfect for manic me.
like idk
i just feel at home to the pounding bass.
and the fast drums.

i just love it:)
always have.
always will.

GOTTA FIND A WAY, FIND A WAY, WHEN I'M THERE, GOTTA FIND A WAY, A BETTER WAY, I'D BETTER WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

standing on the porch
i test the cold air
Territorial Pissings is on
right when it picks up i jump off my porch,
bolt down my allyway
continue running at warpspeed
get to 7/11 6 blocks away
before the song is over i go off to the side
vomit up whatever's left of my lungs
then walk into the store song ends grab two,
2 liters of coke
pay and leave
walk home.
i felt flipping amazing and the vomitting just made me feel more badass
anyway i am ready to chillll
lol
my body just took a beating.
but i feel so fucking amazing because of it.
mhm.
i'm dead.
but yet i'm so much more alive.

IIIIII Can't Kiss Molly's Lips.

well im not sure if i want tooo.
because well she's my cousin xD
anywayy
it's okay to find your cousins attractive right?
lololol
emily once asked me that.
and i said yes.
anywayy
the 1 or 2 people who know will be like "Kevinnnnn"
then sigh and shake there head.
lol cept
only 1 of them will read this and know what the fuck im talking aboutttt
anywayyyy
speaking of whichhh i need to chill with molly
i think i am doing this, this weekend with her and linds
tis fun?
hopefulllyyyy
anywayyyy
people are lame with the no blogging thing.
i think i might beat them up.
AND I HAVE THE BIGGEST FUCKING HEADACHE IN THE WORLD
its one of those i get when my eye starts pulseing and my head starts to feel like a hand grenade is going off every second.
and when i walk i almost collapse because of it.
anyyyway i can't thinkkk
nor can i see
O.o
wow i dont know
oh and my stummy has been killing itself lately.
and idk i am in no way healthy.
nor will i ever be.
hnmmm
maybe no school for me.
cause i think i need to do like 332432432 homework assignments for friday
but i might not do them anyway
i mean im failing like 3 or 4 classes.
so whatever.
im not going to be able to succeed (i killed the spelling on that i think) even if i try.
so like whatever.
im gonna fail first quarter.
get the living hell yelled at by mother.
and get fucked over
lose friend privledges including the band
possibly alot more shit taken away from me.
get called a failure.
and bleh.
whatever
be prepared to be depressed Kevin.
ok.

OH!
and im really proud of em for beating the shit out of that guy at school:)
for constantly making fun of her arm.
even though we prolly wont be able to hang out this weekend now.
but it's fine
i'm still very proud of her.

speaking of which.....
it scares me at the level she's been scarred.
cause i think it surpasses my scarring from the past.
cause i wouldnt be able to live through what she did.
it's just another thing to look up to her for...

i'm afraid, i'm afraid, afraid, GHOST!

i see you almost every day now.
and i can do it without panicing now.
it's good.
your from a part of my life i wish to forget
but your there.
and when you choose to interact with me.
i will react.
thats how it goes.

you frustrate me lately.
which is surprising.
because you never used to,
oh well.
grow up a bit
and accept the gift thats been given to you.
cause your pissing me off by doing what your doing.

anyway.
i can't wait to see em this weekend
if her mother will let her escapeee
which is actually likely.
:)
hopefullyyy
anyway.

as always
Nirvana's amazing.
3 Kurt Cobain posters up now.
and 1 Nirvana one.
they were amazing live
this DVD of them is amazing.
especially when they joke around.
and the ending is fucking epic.
anyway im gone.
peace.
i'm gonna write more songs.
while doing what?
listening to Nirvana obv.
good inspiration.
different style to try out.
lets see where my emotions go.
byes

"beat me out of me"

RAPE ME!

i love Nirvana.
i Love Kurt Cobain.
I LOVE HOW i read his suicide note. and was like FUCK
this is to relatable.
and then got all depressed.
it was interesting.
THEN i was like ian check it out.
but still.
as much as i love feeling and thinking the same way as a Dead Rockstar who committed suicide who was basically the leader to an entire generation.
it's FUCKING DEPRESSING.
but oh well.
i love him.
i love people in general.
its cool.

I Couldn't Face A Life Without Your Life.

i feel trapped.
i can't stand this.
i need you.
i want you.
i love you....

"Bury all your secrets in my skin
Come away with innocence, and leave me with my sins
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again"

i'm terrible.
i want to push her away.
just so i can be numb again.
just so i can give up on everything again.
like freshmen year.
back when not even kyle could snap me out of myself.
and everyone accepted the fact that i was gonna kill myself.
i want to give up but i can't.
because i love her to much.
i don't even deserve her if i feel this way.
it's not fair to her at all.

"So if you love me, let me go. And run away before I know.
My heart is just too dark to care. I can�t destroy what isn't there.
Deliver me into my Fate - If I'm alone I cannot hate
I don't deserve to have you.
My smile was taken long ago / If I can change I hope I never know "

and i know you care.
but you never used to fight for my friendship.
i don't know if you ever will.
i wish you would.
but i don't know...

"I still press your letters to my lips
And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss
I couldn�t face a life without your light
But all of that was ripped apart� when you refused to fight"

i know you can't love me.
you say you can't love.
that your heart is dead.
but i don't think thats true.
why won't you try!
damnit i just need you to try...
:'(
your my best friend.
your the only one i would ever suffer this much for.
i know im not the best.
but we're all we've got.
but i'm losing hope....

"So save your breath, I will not hear. I think I made it very clear.
You couldn't hate enough to love. Is that supposed to be enough?
I only wish you weren't my friend. Then I could hurt you in the end.
I never claimed to be a Saint
My own was banished long ago / It took the Death of Hope to let you go "

giving up seems second nature to me now...
but i can't give up yet...
but i don't get a choice if you won't ever try.
cause then theres nothing to give up on...
i don't know....
i can't stand this thinking anymore.
relapsing.
i can't stand this cycle.
cycle.
cycle.

"So Break Yourself Against My Stones
And Spit Your Pity In My Soul
You Never Needed Any Help
You Sold Me Out To Save Yourself
And I Won't Listen To Your Shame
You Ran Away - You're All The Same
Angels Lie To Keep Control.
My Love Was Punished Long Ago
If You Still Care, Don't Ever Let Me Know
If you still care, don't ever let me know."

...your the only one who can break this cycle.

The Virus Of Life.

i love how everyone has problems.
and then they hide them.
cause they think it really matters if your hiding it or not.
because no matter what.
it's still a problem until it's resolved

"your relaxed, your sublime, your amazing
you don't even know the danger your facing"

but i don't know
i like my life chaotic.
and i love my explanation to Ian about why i don't cut anymore.
:p
i don't cut anymore because i mearly find it convienent not to xD
hell i'd love to drag some form of sharp object down my body.
but then people are like WAHHHHH
you can't do that.
and i'm just like ugh why?
and it's just convienent not to
xD

that paragraph made me seem INSANE.
I'm not gonna lie.
oh well

"this is the virus, the virus of life
this is inside us, the crisis, the knife"

: )

but oh well.
hopefully Hell Night will be fun.
i'll find something to do.
and Halloween should be entertaining also!
MUAHAHAHAHA.

"i wanna touch your face/i wanna touch your soul
i wanna wear your face/i wanna burn your soul"

lol i love creepy fucking lyrics:)

and idk my life is chill so i'm good.
the end!

"watching - bring me to my knees
waiting - i am your disease
lover - set my symptom free
covered - you won't feel a thing
you can't stop me"

Snuff.

ich liebe dich.
immer.

and i'll just shrug it off.

"IT'S NOT MY FAULT I LIKE TO SCARE LITTLE CHILDREN ON HALLOWEEN!!!"
i love not making sense just to avoid whatever the hell i was talking about in the beginning.
like.
why do i need to explain myself:)
it's not needed.
lol
let people make assumptionsssss
i'll be direct if i need to.
other then that.
I LOVE CIRCLES:)
because they go round and round.
and i hate being trapped in a circular loop.
but i like forcing circles in converstations?
im weird
but it's cool cause i have a....
VOICE OF VIOLENCE!!!
don't even fucking ask me what the hell is up cause im more polar then earth.
that didnt even make complete sense
but since when did i need to.
SINCE I NEED TO COMMUNICATE???
fuck thattt motherfuckerssss
the only thing i need to communicate with is my body. ;D

TODAY!
HUGO WAS LIKE YOUR OUT OF YOUR FUCKING MIND!!
and i was like... ya.
AND THEN I JUMPPED ON THE TABLE!
cause i'm that cool.
and kyle started talking like a recovering cocaine addict in a documentry.
it was SCARY 0.o
anywayyyyy
"MY COCK IS MUCH BIGGER THEN YOURS!!!"
i apologize it just came on.
but Violent Pornography is so much better.
and whatever year this album came out.
it's offic The Best Album Of That Year.
anyway.

1 MONTH!
TIL I GET MY MARCUS BACK :D
it's exciting!
i miss him so much! lol
no one else has an amazing sarcastic witty intelligent personality :p

so lastly idk?
alexandra is starting to get better finally:)
i'm happy about that.
um everyone else?
i kind of wish i could fade away....
cause i dont want to hang out with anyone right now.
and i wish i could stay this way...
idk..

everyone wants to me to apply myself in some way.
why can't i waste away?
why do i have to do what they want.
whatever.

"i never meant to hurt you"

The Pros And Cons Of Breathing

"i want to hate you half as much as i hate myyyy self!"
:)
i love my friends.
and i really don't care
i love you all the same if your sad or happy or mad or whateverrrr
cause your still you people lol?
IDK!
xD
but anywayyyy
I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S HAPPENING.
lol:)
but i don't care?
it's cool.
muahahahahah.
my friends need lives.
and those who have lives.
need to learn to let go of there lives.
cause whats the point of having a life?
but also whats the point of not having a life?
I REALLY LIKE THESE LINES CAUSE THEY SLANT
DOWNWARDSSSSSSS AND TO THE RIGHTTTTTTTT XD

BTW
this is me hyper.
and i'm glad i have my best friend Coke Cola back.
it's good:)

ANYWAY.
ummm i need someone to write about.
cause why blog unless theres misery???
lol jkkkkk :P
um
ALEXANDRA FAYE ORSINO!!!!!
I HOPE YOU GET BETTER SOON!!!!
please and thank you.
it'd would not be cool if it was the mexican's fault you died.
cause then i'd have a grudge against Chris.
oh wellll
but seriously
I DON'T WANT YOU TO DIE.
the end.
cause that would suck.
alot.
i mean.
your like.
my superbestfriend.
BOOM.
idk?

i've lost all train of thought!!!
i think going BOOM does that to me.
wait what?

idk what's going
BOOM
wahooooo
YOSHI IS MY HERO.
AND THIS IS THE BEST BLOG OF MY LIFE!!!!
jk. it's the most pointless.

I HAVE SOMETHING TO TELL EVERYONE!!!!
I REALLY REALLY WANT TO..... BOOM!!!
what? idk?
ok cool.
alright how much more pointlessness can i right.
I LOVE PETE WENTZ.
mhm.
i respect him as a musician who has excelled in a career
that i want to be a part of.
AND.
he's excelled with the same issue i have:)
sooo it makes me happy and gives me hope.
ANYWAY!!!!!

Dj POLAR
OUT!!

"i wish i was as invisible as you make me feel"

lol i love how i was the only exception in Nate's thinking xD

BTW.
Nate Cunha is my new favorite person to discuss philosophy with :)
lol this converstaion is the best i've had in awhile.
and it's been going on for like 2 hours or more xD

starting with why people should feel pain
and it went off from there into like 5 different things.
and now we're on logic.
which i believe is illogical to begin with.
and then back to feelings and pain.
and now we are talking about me being bi-polar?
and about how it's formed my Nihilistic views
and my full belief in chaos.
the we just talked about how we had fun talking to each other
and then what started my warped thinking.
and he told me thats the exception he was talking about xD
which is kind of bad i guess?
but i don't mind being the exception:)
lol

Me, Nate, And Kyle should all get together one day and talk lol:)

anyway i'm going upstairs to wait for Ian.
i'm happy i got to talk to Nate as it was really interesting.
but now i'm gone:)

I Must Say I Love This Girl.

that made me happy:)
this whole conversation made me happy.

"i can't tell you"
"what the hell >.< what is this"
":)"
"not cool, you've got something planned and i'm in the dark, not cool"
" think it's pretty fun lol"
"of course you do, your the one who knows what's happening >.<"
":) you loveee me"
"now your just not being fair darling :p"
"lol i don't like playing by the rules"
"i can see that, i think i'm gonna eat you :D"
"with ketchup?, lol"
"lol i think you'd taste better with whipped cream XD"
"oh baby lol"

i don't even knowww.
but we were both happy.
THAT does not happen alot.
we both made each other happy.
that alone is a step forward for both of us :)

idkkkk

i can't stress it enough.
i live my life for January 13th
<3

Liberate My Madness.

I. DID. NOT. NEED. THAT.
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck.
WHY THE FUCK DID I HAVE TO SEE YOU?!?!
Fuck.
one of the two people i never wanted to meet again.
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck.
ughhh your the one who i can't be pissed at.
BUT YOUR BROTHER.
is the one i hate.
i hope i never see him.
cause honestly i don't know what i'd do....
i saw you.
and that was enough.
if i saw him.
i think i'd kill him.

"I can't be a part of a system such as this
Hard eyes - Glow right - In my - Darkness - Again
With the sickness, rengade blisters, sisters,
Salivate, litigate, liberate, madness, sadness
Fuck this - How long have I had this?
I don't need this - Outta my business Insert, engage betrayed, my God
Fraud

Liberate - My madness
(One of me, all of you)
Liberate - My madness I just want to... "

hope.

so that just made my life.
mad world just came on some drama show my mother had on.
it made me happy:)

anyway.
i've decided.
when i was the saddest i've been in awhile.
and frustrated.
with all my childish fears.
like always.
i decided that i'm not gonna give up hope.
as long as my heart keeps beating.
i'll do anything.
anything except give up on you.
thats how it's been.
i won't stop.

"That I would do anything for love
And you know it's true and that's a fact
I would do anything for love
And there'll never be no turning back
But I'll never do it better than I do it with you"

I'm Poisoned Without A Way Of Knowing It

i really just don't know anymore.
i hate to be loved.
i can't express happiness when someone says anything along those lines.
i love to be hated.
it's true but its also not true.
i don't understand my fucking stance on anything anymore.
really i think i can just pass by anything with a "whatever"
and truely not ever care about what i'm missing.
and i don't have a problem with sleeping life away.
i wake up feeling miserable.
so i just sleep to stop that feeling.
i think that makes me weak.
i think i am really weak.
just no one notices that.
they all just think "oh Kevin, will be okay"
or something stupid like that.
i don't really think i'll ever be okay.
but maybe i don't really even know how i am.
or who i am.
or whatever the fuck exists where i am supposed to exist.
whatever fuck it.
i cease to care.
whatever.
i never truely cared anyway.
or maybe im just lying to myself.
i love how i never know what i really mean.
and i just attach a meaning to what i do afterwards.
i think that defines me more then anything.
cause i never give a fuck about the ending.
i let chaos take a hold of me.
and follow it til the end.

"Pain is the only thing I feel
Scars all I see"

I Bless The Rains Down In Africa

haha
caffine made me feel better:)
its a good thing.
without it i'd be all zombie like.
BUT anyway:)
things are okay and good:p
i guess i just miss her alot so i'm all emotional and irritable.
not that i'm not emotional already
i'm just more irritable then i usually am.
so thats about it.
other then that
people mostly aren't having an issue with me
which is good i guess.
but people are also telling me im something greater then i know i am.
which annoys me.
but oh well.
i sound like one of those kids who doesn't have any "real" problems and complains about stupid things.
but idk real problems dont bother me.
the idiotic things do.
sooo i don't know?

BOOM!
just realized this title actually has something to do with the post.
lol figure it out.
now im gonna go be hyper and do something fun:)

"it's gonna take alot to drag me away from you"

Here We Go Again Motherf**ker

People Are Boring
no matter what anyone does.
everything just ends with boredom.
and everyone just tries to cover up that boredom by occupying themselves with things that just cause problems.
so,
People Are Also "The Problem".
in otherwords People = Shit.
i don't really care if thats copied it's true.
and in the end
People's Problems Create More Problems.
it's the lamest fucking cycle in the world.
and those who Solve The Problems.
just create more and more BOREDOM.
and thus.
humanity causes it's own destruction.
and everyone is a blight on somebody else.

that's how i feel right now.
i need to break this stupid cycle.
because it's pointless and driving me insane.

"They never told me the failure I was meant to be
Overdo it - don't tell me you blew it
Stop your bitchin' and fight your way through it
I'M - NOT - LIKE - YOU - I - JUST - FUCK - UP"

My Heart Rips Me Right Open.

so tired.
it's not even funny.
physically and emotionally.
that fact that everytime i try to sleep my spine starts to commit suicide doesn't help at all...

but anyway i really just don't know.
life sucks but its nothing to complain about.
cause its all my fault really.
my heart attaching to so many hearts just as fragile.
and my head hating to get involved.
social suicide is all i know.
even though its harder then it looks.
because everyone has to heal the cuts my words leave behind.
people don't make sense.
but oh well.

lastly i feel as though im losing the people who mean the most.
it's just something i don't need to go though again.
i gotta work on that.
other then that.
i've already given up trying.

"will you pause?
and break my heart..."

hmmmm well i guess.

i guess i'm making a new blog.
sigh.
people and their not using myspace.
oh well.
so here we gooo.
not really
cause i'm to lazy to actually write anything right now.
and the red head is coming over.
so i'll end.

i know what i'll do to get back in you arms.
but for now i can't find my way home
<3