I Couldn't Face A Life Without Your Life.

i feel trapped.
i can't stand this.
i need you.
i want you.
i love you....

"Bury all your secrets in my skin
Come away with innocence, and leave me with my sins
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again"

i'm terrible.
i want to push her away.
just so i can be numb again.
just so i can give up on everything again.
like freshmen year.
back when not even kyle could snap me out of myself.
and everyone accepted the fact that i was gonna kill myself.
i want to give up but i can't.
because i love her to much.
i don't even deserve her if i feel this way.
it's not fair to her at all.

"So if you love me, let me go. And run away before I know.
My heart is just too dark to care. I can�t destroy what isn't there.
Deliver me into my Fate - If I'm alone I cannot hate
I don't deserve to have you.
My smile was taken long ago / If I can change I hope I never know "

and i know you care.
but you never used to fight for my friendship.
i don't know if you ever will.
i wish you would.
but i don't know...

"I still press your letters to my lips
And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss
I couldn�t face a life without your light
But all of that was ripped apart� when you refused to fight"

i know you can't love me.
you say you can't love.
that your heart is dead.
but i don't think thats true.
why won't you try!
damnit i just need you to try...
:'(
your my best friend.
your the only one i would ever suffer this much for.
i know im not the best.
but we're all we've got.
but i'm losing hope....

"So save your breath, I will not hear. I think I made it very clear.
You couldn't hate enough to love. Is that supposed to be enough?
I only wish you weren't my friend. Then I could hurt you in the end.
I never claimed to be a Saint
My own was banished long ago / It took the Death of Hope to let you go "

giving up seems second nature to me now...
but i can't give up yet...
but i don't get a choice if you won't ever try.
cause then theres nothing to give up on...
i don't know....
i can't stand this thinking anymore.
relapsing.
i can't stand this cycle.
cycle.
cycle.

"So Break Yourself Against My Stones
And Spit Your Pity In My Soul
You Never Needed Any Help
You Sold Me Out To Save Yourself
And I Won't Listen To Your Shame
You Ran Away - You're All The Same
Angels Lie To Keep Control.
My Love Was Punished Long Ago
If You Still Care, Don't Ever Let Me Know
If you still care, don't ever let me know."

...your the only one who can break this cycle.