To Many Things No One Would Understand.

i like.
electricity.
why?
because it's chaos.
i love the feel of it crawling through my skin.
when it glances my finger tips through my body and down to the ground.
plus.
it's soothing to stare at.
even if it's restrained at the time.
and how so much i want to let it free...

i wish i wasn't in a life like this.
one that seems to be like an alternative reality game.
i wish it was more like a rpg.
i hope my consciousness breaks the mold.
i hope to end up in a different type of reality once i die.

i don't need to "wake up"
i just need to be dreaming a different dream.

i like that.
alot.

i find the darkness appealing.
i find light boring.
i wish i could live at night only.
and sleep during the day.
the night offers comfort.
but the day offers people.
the night offers excitment.
while the day offers routine.
it bothers me so much.
i like to hide.
it's who i am.
yet im forced to reveal myself in the light.
ihateitihateitihateit.

no one else can relate.
i hate it when that happens.
i wish people could understand what i meant.
when i said i felt what i heard.
i can't describe it...

and i don't understand your need to explain everything.
i play yugioh because its there.
and the fact that im a teen has nothing to do with anything about it.
why do you have to analyze everything to the point where theres no room for any freeway.
you'll just end up struggling even more because of it.
things are meant to be free and unrestricted.
stop shoving them into a box.
your pissing me off.

silence.
is more appreciated then ever.
lately.
i've been enjoying the silence whenever i can.
i only listen to music to drown out noise.
but when theres no noise.
i turn off my ipod,
my music,
and i listen to nothing.

lastly.
im worried.
i can't explain why.
or what.
but im worried about you.
be careful.
<3.

p.s.
i found a song.
and i love it.
its weird.
because.
i feel.
as though.
i can.
relate to the guitar.
and how it is.
idk.
i love it.

M4 Part 2 (Faunts) - Jack Wall and Sam Hulick
it's the credits theme to Mass Effect...