it's not fair.

not to any of you.
i love each of you individually.
but i resent everyone.
for not being able to show me love.
im always told everything.
but never shown.
i can't feel words.
it's my downfall.
"your my bestfriend"
is meaningless.
"i hate you"
is meaningless
"i love you"
meaningless.

i'm so apathetic in my resent though.
i'll never truely care - my downfall.

i came close to death.
i realized.
i need to list reasons why.

i cant act any longer...
so i'm stuck with words.
which seem to be all i got
it sucks so much to be stuck,
Meaningless.