A Letter To Friends At The End Of Day 1.

Day 1 of my retreat from life is nearing it's end.

I'm falling in love with this idea more and more as the day goes on.

I don't feel surrounded, I feel like I have space, It feels so freaking nice not to be constantly around people.

Don't get me wrong, I love my friends, I love them immensely. My friends are my light when things get dark, but at this very moment, I just need to figure things out for myself.

But here's a message to each of my friends who tried to contact me today.

Ian, 

 Thank you for your support, it means a lot to me that you believe in me and trust me to get through this.

Chris,
 I am sorry, I am deeply deeply sorry that I missed Once Upon A Time tonight, I've been looking forward to it all week, but I'm just in a weird place right now, i'll make it up to you as soon as I get back to normal, and I promise that i'll will be there every single episode after that one. I hope you understand. Love you.

Brian,
 I'm not sure how long this will take, but I definitely think it will be awhile, but the end of this week seems like a good estimate, sorry for just kind of disappearing on you. You've been a really great friend lately and I appreciate it.

For my other friends who will inevitably see this.

Taylor,
 I'm sorry that we never got to our Yugioh marathon, when i'm back from this exodus or whatever I promise will begin that journey together.

I doubt Kyle and Brandon will see this but I just wanted to let them know that I love them and will return shortly.

also, Jacqueline,

 Thank you for having faith in me.

and with that I end my night.
Goodnight friends.

oh. and here's this song that is on repeat.

Listen to it, unless you're Jackie, cause it's on your mix and you're not allowed to listen to it out of order.

With Love And Squalor,

 Kevin.