Hello Again My Friend.

There are fractions of life that makes living seem difficult or just plain not worth it. Years of life can be like this, which is why I have come to an impasse. I want to leave, to get out of this place. But I full well know I can't just do that. I wouldn't survive, I couldn't survive, cause mainly part of me also wants to stay. I like it here. But do i like it here because its easy, or do I like it because I enjoy living here.......................(several thinking dots later) I think I like it because its easy. Because if I enjoyed it here I wouldn't be so annoyed all the time. I need a change, a change of people, a change of scenery, a change of life. But will I take action and try to seek out change? Probably and frustratingly not. why? Because simply I'm am immature 18 year old who doesn't know what he wants and my only solution to life is to avoid problems and run away. sigh.

On a super personal note. I might be meeting my father soon.
Dear unknown, but not for long.

Signing Off,
A Boy Brushed Red.
(yep. I'm that clever.)