Pathetic

Some days. i wish i could get out of bed with a smile on my face.
Some days. i wish i could fall asleep with a smile on my face.
Some days. i wish i wouldn't lie around doing nothing.
Some days. i wish i had the energy to be productive.
Some days. i wish i could take care of myself.
Some days. i wish i wasn't always sad.
Other days. i give up.

For now. i'll just listen to "I Remember"
and think about everything.

"Feeling the past moving in
Letting a new day begin
Hold to the time that you know
You don't have to move on to let go

Add to the memory you keep
Remember when you fall asleep
Hold to the love that you know
You don't have to give up to let go

Remember turning on the the night
And moving through the morning light
Remember how it was with you
Remember how you pulled me through"

also.
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