i don't think they understand.

when i say i wish i was sad forever.

I Remember

      I remember seeing the atom bombs fall. The horror of the war brought home to us in a 20 ton casket-making shell. It seemed so far away, but it was the closest thing to God i have ever laid eyes on. It's descent from the sky seemed to last in years, but really passed in seconds.
      I began to hate gravity with a passion. How could it let this happen? How could it allow millions of people to die? Grimacing with few seconds left i whispered, "Fuck gravity"... and in a flash, everything went black.
      I woke up in the middle of the street to thousands of screaming voices all saying the same thing, "How could this happen to us". Barely remembering what happened, I jumped to my feet, trying to evaluate the destruction left in the devils wake.
      New York City was gone, no longer could I see the city that touched the sky. Maybe that was their punishment, maybe they got to close to God... but in the end it didn't matter, New York had been destroyed, turned into a crater by the creation of mankind. It was difficult to imagine that this was our fault, that we created such a weapon. Taking one last glance at the crater left behind, i walked away.
      Then... i started to feel sick....

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yep, that's how i'm ending it for now.
deal with it.

I began to love your goodbyes
when you walked out that door.

Physics.

i'll be the one who defies gravity.

Say It All.

while my voice is dying
the revolution is on the edge of it's seat.

i feel like dying.

sick.
throwing up.
exhausted.
can't sleep.
i feel like dying.
hold me...

ence ence ence ence.

Strobe Light Dance Parties.
are the best parties.
hands down.