I think, despite everything that has happened, I think I'm just going to slowly fade away.

I'm unhappy.

I can't continue living like this forever.
I hate life, theres really no point to it.
The next 30 years just seem like they're going to be awful.

I just wish there was something that I wanted to do, that I wanted to be.

Signing off,
A very sad, a very depressed, a very lost Kevin.

This was from Sunday.

This week is gonna suck.
I can feel it.
And I don't know if I want to fight it /:
Winter sadness here I come.

i am having a very quiet meltdown.

I just need to learn to let go, say goodbye, and not come back.

{i posted this on the wrong blog ^_^' its from saturday night}

I think, I'm coming down from the high of happiness that I've been in all week.
Everything seems so slow and I'm just so tired.
Absolutely nothing sparked this, everything has been so great lately, and everything still is.
Maybe it's just part of who I am to subconsciously reject being happy.
These changes have always been a part of who I am.
I just hoped that this was different.

Who knows, maybe I'll wake up and I'll return to feeling alright.
Maybe I'm fussing over nothing.

But for now I just want to sleep and forget the fact that I exist tonight.

Goodnight.
Love Kevin.

Toxic.

You're gone and it's because of me.
And you will forever blame me.
I don't know how I feel about that.

What I do know is that I feel guilty for feeling relieved that you're not going to be around anymore.

Goodbye Alex.