Kill The Lights

I'm afraid to be seen in the light.
I'm not safe there.

LIES.

NO ONE READS THIS ANYMORE.
but oh well.
i have written 3 papers today.
and i am done.
i pretty much hate my life right now.
because i completely wasted my day on papers that don't matter.
but who the hell cares.
i am going to sleep.
so fuck you. <3

Breathe In For Luck.

i like to think that i can be lucky.
because being lucky isn't arrogant.
so i feel like it takes the blame off of me.
because i know what it feels like to lose.
so whenever i win.
all i can think about is how someone else loss.
that's why i don't like competing.

also.
i love change.
but only when i initiate it.

No Phone.

part of me enjoys not being able to talk to anyone.
i don't have to be involved with them.
part of it is a relief.
like i'm less stressed out.
but also it's more stressed out.
because i'm alone.
and nothing good comes from that.