New Blog

i just wanted everyone to know.
that i have a new blog where you can read mostly all of the lyrics i have written.
if that interests you here is the link
http://justamatch.blogspot.com/

1984

Is an amazing book and just as depressing.
But I have concluded a couple of things.

First, politically I'm slightly passionate.
I dislike any imposed authority to the point of anger.
And I hate all things forced onto us.
Whether socially or lawfully.

And in my mind I've decided that at some point all governments will turn negative in some way and impose power over there citizens while destroying our sense of self.

and the only true way to escape this to destroy the governments preemptively (not a word according to my phone) and create an anarchy which despite its flaws is the only way we can avoid a totalitarian government being formed and us being robbed of our humanity and freedom.

Except now the issue is that somewhere someone will try to create a government. And the only way around that would be for there to be a group or society of people in existent who are dedicated to destroying all attempts at forming governments.

Thus creating a force in "power" through fear. And creating a "power" similar to a government and ruining the point of this entire society.

I am going to write a book.

Penguins Are Cute. So Is Death.

Wicked panic attacks before flight.
Sadness about dying alone.
Survived.
Aquariums are cool.
I love penguins.
I want one as a pet.
I also love otters.
Racism angers me.
The civil rights museum was interesting.
But in the end.
I am sad.
I don't do to well on my own.

I feel..

I feel like I'm dying every night
But shhh
don't tell a soul.
I feel like I'm lying every day
But its an art
So its okay.
I feel like I'm tired all the time
But its a sickness
Partially in my mind.
I feel like I'm never good enough
But
I never will be
I feel like I'm supposed to be better
But
I HAVE to be.
I feel like...
I'm sick of living once again
And its my fault for the state I'm in.

Translucent Little Hallucinations.

Occasionally
When I'm really tired or off guard.
I think I see the spiders again.

I'm not sure why anyone reads my blog.
I never have anything relatively relevant to say.

But oh well.
I have begun my solo recording process
Only to have my mic break
So I ended up recording directly to my computer which was annoying since it makes you unable to listen to previously laid tracks which makes it harder to play in sync with yourself.

I need a new mic.
And a new ipod.

In more apathetic news.
I'm having constant pain from the back of my shoulder that builds up everyday from a lil bit of pain to hurting so much I want to chop off my arm.
Its becoming annoying.

Good day sir.
Signing off dead.

Paramore

fucking amazing concert.
My head/neck muscles are so done its hard to keep my head up
My voice is dead
But
It was amazing.
I love live music.
I love hayley williams.
I love Josh Farro.
I love Paramore.

Dance While The Devil Sleeps.

Creativity is my weakness and my only asset.