There's A Fire In The Distance

and my head is spinning.
someone please rip it off?

Girlfriend.

i have a girlfriend now :)
nuff said.

I'm Such A Sucker.

i'm trying my best.
to not be sad.
because no one deserves to have to deal with it.

You've Got Your Gun To My Head.

i'm hoping that nothing happens.
but also,
i'm hoping that everything happens.

Short, Sweet, And To The Point.

i like sarah.
:)

Another Amazing Night.

that makes three of them :)
more then i've had in a longggg time
i think.
i could get used to this.
more so.
i think.
i want to get used to this.
actually.
i know so.
hmm
:)
i think
i have an idea,
possibly :)

My Head Might Be Spinning, And My Heart Just Might Be Racing.

hmmm.
last night and this morning.
was amazing.
and
thats all i have to say about it.

Growing Up

"I dried my eyes now i crust them with sleep. i'll crust them over.
She begged me "dont hate me". she spun me a story
Where winning looks like loosing and i'm winning every time. so thread spools
sweetie, get ready.
Until my silk is sold.

Growing up.
Yeah, i'll find myself a new.

I've dried my eyes. now it's "rushmore". i'm deep with futures like chicago.
Glenview never meant a thing to me, she never meant a thing to me except for putting idealists in body bags.
Forget it, i'll go out tonight and piss on her doorstep
And listen to the misfits "where eagels dare" to swallow whole.

Growing up.
I guess im on my own."


i don't talk to most people about it much, but i'm sure it's pretty obvious how i feel about growing up personally.
i just figured i'd go out and say it
i am deathly afraid of growing up.
why?
theres probably too many reason to think of
so i'll just ignore it for now
and,
i think thats the reason i've been so out of it and depressed lately.
cause we're told we all have to change and grow up.
and if you don't there's no hope for you.
so i guess,
i'm just coming to terms with how fucked i am.

another one.

it makes me sick.
one,two,three,four,five,six,seven,eight.
to many to know.
fuck the previous generation and their failed attempts of upbringing.
maybe.
the reason i dont want to grow up is because,
there's no adult in my life worth looking up to.

I Don't Want To See

the innocence in me.

Please place your bets

i am interested in life at the moment.
let's see what happens?
please place your bets
cause i don't know just what will hit me yet.

Night

Night is my favorite time of the day.
But also the hardest for me to get through.
Probably because I'm all alone..

'Game Over She Said I Got A New Friend'

"and I've been feeling fine....."

I hate how every time something like this happens
I don't want to choose
I don't want to hurt anyone.
But I want to hurt myself because I'm so pathetic.
And now I'm being over dramatic about something that's not a big deal...

I just want life to go away.