Let's pretend, we're not at the end.

hmmm,
i'm waiting until i see a ghost.

happiness.

pain.endorphins.love.

I Found Out The Hard Way, NOTHING IS WHAT IT SEEMS.

r.i.p paul gray.
you have my love wherever you go.

i need to find a way to deal with how this might be the end to slipknot...
i don't know if i can.
:'(
please don't die.
i'm a maggot for a reason.
and The Nine my personal Gods.
<3

I want to be locked back in a dream...
Life is to scary for me to deal with and to hard for me to handle...

17

i guess I get to be 17 for a year
I'm not sure how I feel about that...
Oh well
Not quite time for reflecting on the past just yet

Disconnected.

every person, every living thing in the world is driven by something, but its not always the same thing.
1 human might do something because of curiousity.
1 different human might do the same thing because of fear.
1 human might do something to mearly survive.
the differences in the detail define a person's character.
it doesn't truly matter what action is preformed, only the motive and intentions behind it.
yes the act of killing someone is commonly defined as wrong, as you're taking someones life from them.
but why you did, defines you.
personal character is all that really matters, as long as you know what for and why you do something, it shouldn't matter the outcome.
who you are, why you do the things you do, are the only questions worth discovering, worth knowing.
whether for personal comfort, or some form of after-death religious comfort, or both,
doing things for a reason that you deep down believe is right, not what the world and society think are right, but for what you feel is right, thats how you should be judged, not by a world that can't be can't or won't be sympathetic or even understand your motives.
but alas,
The World Is Disconnected.

Your eyes

I don't want to live this week.
The only present I really want is to see her... =/
Birthdays are overrated.
Time and age are relative.
Goodnight world.
I hate you too.

Missing of a Mindless Trance

i wish i wasn't caught where i am now.
that i was more depressed than i am.
that i could go everyday in that trance i know so well.
instead of getting exicted about things, or actually going out and doing things.
i miss the trance of depression.
and the love of a razorblade.
=/
its fucked up i know.
but its so much sweeter than being aggitated and active all the time.

Pointless Differences

I am neither a Liberal or a Conservative, nor am i an Atheist or a Theist. I am just a man who happens to be an Individualistic Anarchist with Nihilistic thoughts who believes the only one true thing in the world is Chaos.
but then again,
Why Does This Matter?

Chaos.

i was gonna have some long blog about morals and the pointlessness of them even existing because in the long run they have no control over anything that happens in this world.
so we should just continue with our lives and let choas run free.

Almost.

You've come back to me
It was almost easy.
And for now
I'm happy

Stop Giving Up.

i hate the fact that you wont fight yourself.
that you're just going to give up and accept the state you're in.
that pisses me off.
fight it goddammit. fight.
i wont watch you die.

Story Time

soon.
as i think i might finish my story tonight/this morning
and i think i'll post it like everywhere i can.
so when i post it
i hope people will tell me what they think
cause i need the critism/praise
;)
alright well
onward!
btw this is the most pointless post in awhile.
oh wellll